Many people write to me about what I say on my website. They are very kind and speak of the clarity, directness, honesty, fearlessness and wisdom, which they perceive is coming from me.
The qualities these people perceive are within them, or they would not see them in me. It is difficult at times to tell where our thoughts and feelings are coming from. Is it from the ego as past conditioning? Or is it from somewhere far deeper within? Is it superficial or profound? Is it real or just part of the dream of separation?
Have you not experienced times when you are speaking with someone and what you say comes out far more profound than you thought you were capable of? You think, "Wow, where did that come from?" This happened to me many times when the body was young and the mind confused and lost. Things would be said that were very meaningful and powerful and yet I had no idea where they came from. It was like beautiful flowers instantly blooming in a field of dry weeds.
There was also a quality of timelessness about these insights. They did not seem to come from my past. There was nothing in the past that had prepared the mind to see these moments of pure clarity.
Now, many years later, there is understanding of where these insights came from and still do come from. It is Life speaking. When we are lost in conditioning, beliefs, concepts and all of our fears and doubts, we cannot hear what is being said from the Heart of Life. The subtle sound of joy is blocked by the seeming need to protect ourselves and to play out the role we think we are. We look out on the world with eyes that can only see the past and the limitations of history.
When the mind at last starts to question what is going on within itself, there comes freedom; a freedom that allows one to let go of the tight grip the ego mind has on what it thinks and feels. As we begin to really understand and let go, insights start arising more often. We have periods when there seems to be nothing but insight. Every thought, every question, is answered with profound insight. We are no longer the little ego dream. Out of timeless infinity comes a deep knowing joy. We are that joy. We are that infinity and we are truly timeless.
The ego has served its purpose. It has developed a mind that can express itself, one that can see very abstractly, and with great complexity. It can see with subtleties that are very profound. It took millions of years to evolve this capacity, but in a timeless reality, it has been instantly. Now Life, that wonder of pure awareness and wisdom, has a vehicle to use that will accelerate the evolution of humankind to undreamed of levels. It is already complete. We just do not see it clearly.
As each of us comes to see and understand what we are, we become a voice for Wisdom. Not that we will not make many mistakes along the way. We are breaking down millions of years of conditioning to find the freedom that has always been here. At first, you will wonder if what you feel and think is coming from Life, or if is it conditioning. It all becomes clearer as we use our newfound connection with Reality.
Enlightenment is just a first step towards a full return to Life. However, it is a powerful step that takes us out of the dream of ego and opens our Heart to that which has always been and always will be.
In those moments when you are quiet and at peace, Life will speak through you. Sometimes it comes as just simple joy. Or as love. Be attentive to it; listen to your heart. It is the Heart of Life Itself. There is only one Being. The one that speaks to us from our depth is our true Being. When something that has been written here moves you, it is your own movement from the same Being. We are not two.
